Scattered update

The fill I got on Wed 12/21 is finally hitting me.  Which is a good thing (as soon as I get it figured out).  Hmmm ... here's an idea: go back to bandster basics: tiny bites, chew to pulverization, etc.  


Didn't go to the gym last night.  I was just too tired and simply did not feel well.  Was in bed at 845pm and it was a push to stay up that late.


In (yet another dreaded) meeting with the Twinkie-Twit big boss lady yesterday - I crossed my legs wearing jeans (ha !).  I'm sure it wasn't pretty and I had to kind of be on my side/hip to do it but I don't care !  In HER face !  Did I ever tell you about the boot comment?  She said: Blahblahblah - my calves aren't as fat as yours but they are still pretty big.  


Don't feel that good this morning.  Need to feel better, get a few things done and get to the gym !

Stupid-ass Piece of Plastic - be gone !

Well, that does it.  After 23 weeks of reporting in on a weekly basis the weight I had lost (well, not so much lately) - I am done.  I will be reporting in when I drop in five pound increments.  I will still weigh in daily but the anguish (or it is anger) of typing - no movement or up or down a tiny bit is just not worth it.


I am working out.  My body is changing and people are noticing.  I assume I am getting healthier. This is why I had WLS.  To get healthy.  Not to obsess about a number on the scale.  


Faith was the 'word' for 2011.  Faith that if I went through all of the insurance hoops I could have the surgery.  Faith that surgery would be successful.  Faith that I would loose some weight.  Faith that the scale would move, etc. etc.  I will continue having faith in 2012 that I will be successful with my health.  But I will not let a number on a stupid-ass piece of plastic tell me how I will feel about myself. 


Still working on the 2012 word but faith will always be with me. 

I don't think I have ten things

1.  Do you count coffee/tea as 'water'?


2.  Gym workout yesterday - 22 mins on elliptical (3 min cool down) and 30 mins treading water.


3.  Today - 23 mins on elliptical (2 min cool down) and 30 mins treading water.


4.  Both last night and tonight - not really able to eat toast with eggs/chz/bacon casserole (slime).  Now, it needs to be tossed (literally). 


5.  Am recalling (sorry, I don't remember where I read this): the band is different every day with every food for every one.


6.  Scale is not moving and I don't care at this point.


7.  Have been to the gym every day since Mon 12/19 with the exception of Cmas.


8.  Looking forward to New Years Day's tv marathon of Once Upon A Time ... need to rewatch the pilot.


9.  Thinking about my 2012 mantra.


10. I can't believe I'm not going on a friends vacation this year.  Which is is post/bitch for another time.

Workout Wednesday - compliments of Cat

I don't know who I am anymore.  I am sitting here at the car dealership getting my last free oil change (I have a Saturn and when they closed the dealership, another dealership sent me coupons for oil changes to be used before 12/31/11).  


My issues:


Free food.  I've had an oatmeal raisin and a choc chip cookie and a small bag of popcorn.  Since I've burped - I'm done now for dinner.  Calories added to myfitnesspal.com and I'm moving on. 


Workout.  I need to get to it.  Seriously, I've been looking forward to treading water all day long. Which really speak volumes about my work situation ... how sad.


Call me Cat - I need to workout on Wednesdays. 

A good use of 9 minutes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aUaInS6HIGo&feature=share

I hope this works ... if not and you want to check it out


23 and 1/2 hours: What is the single best thing we can do for our health?
www.youtube.com

Poof ! I am so computer illiterate. But I am not nap illiterate so I think I'll do that next.  

Christmas Eve Present

Actually, Christmas Eve Eve Present ... I have pair of size 16 jeans that I was going to try on in another 10 lbs (as I remember wearing them in the 220s) but after my happy-scale dance yesterday, I decided to try them on.


They FIT !!  They certainly weren't baggy, a little loose in the waist and a little of the white cotton showed in the front pockets but they fit !!  Note, they are size 16 WP (wide petite) but who cares !  


::: confetti toss :::

Oh it is about time !

The scale moved !  I had been in the last decade for two months ! And then bouncing around with 3 lbs for the past month.  Maybe those who said: oh yes, when you start working out - you will gain weight/stay the same were right??

Last fill seems to be okay.  I got sick yesterday after lunch (like I had never gotten sick before so I don't know if it was just bad food - but I go to this diner all of the time or it was me/the band) but seem to be fine now.

Working out - yes, every day this week (and I'll be going later today and tomorrow morning).  

Starting weight: 291.6
This morning (and have been for a few days): 239.2

A Christmas and band miracle.  

I have got to pay more attention

I had been eating more than I should for awhile now.  I went in for a fill today and she put in .5cc.  Now that I think about this ... I am now back to where I was (total of 6 cc) when I had to have an unfill.


Hmm.  I hope I'm okay at this level (because last time I was at 6cc - I was unable to eat without pain).  I had a cup of chili and a pinto and cheese (Taco Bell) for lunch and for dinner - some cheese (1oz) and five reduced fat Club crackers and a handful (argh !!) of nut's & bolts (homemade chex-mix) - I stopped by my parents after the gym ... 


I feel like Winnie-the-Pooh in his think-think-think mode ...


                                                           

Happy New Year (day 1)

Well, I did it.  The first day of (my) New Year (yesterday) was a success.  Good protein, good eating, plenty of water and I worked out.  Ta-da !


Reward: slight movement on the scale and four people told me that I looked good/thinner, smaller from behind, etc today.


Death to cookies !


                                         

Happy New Year (a little early)

For the most part, the holiday season parties are over (with the exception of meeting up with Maria the fabulous - Cat, we'll miss you) so now I will STOP, ASSESS and START-OVER !! (Happy New Year !)


The scale this morning placed me at a minus 50 lbs over the course of five months (but I posted that major milestone a long, long time ago).  I've since started working out and while I've appreciated people telling me - oh, you always gain weight when you start working out ... I know that it's also the carpy eating I've been doing.  Well, that bs is over.


And I have all of you to thank.  I spend a ton of time reading yesterday and got so inspired by all of your hard work that I realized that I needed to do the same HARD WORK.


Getting back to the basics:  protein first and shooting for 90 grams per day.  Water - 100 oz per day.  Exercise - get to that fancy-schmantzy gym you love so much four times a week and start using these walking, dancing, biggest looser dvds that are just collecting dust.  


Besides, once the real Jan 1 arrives, I'll already be set !


                                                     

Annual Christmas Party - the follow up

Well, I found the chalk and eraser at an Office Max (which was the 4th errand I did before I made it over to Professor's).  


And today, I am beat.  People start arriving at 6pm and for the first time both the turkey and lamb were done early so the stress was (for the first time) greatly reduced.  At one point, we had 75 people over with probably a handful of others to come later.  Every year the party is different (last night - the pool table never got used and no one went in the hot tub) but (as I said) - people arrived on time/early and most stayed late.  Lots and lots of laughter so I would say the party was a success.


I didn't really eat that much (a meatball or two, a few dips of taco dip or hummus) but the dark rum and diet cokes and the cookie, the bite of fudge and the toppings off two pieces of pizza (hello 2:00am) have made me feel like a total slug today.  Oh, and the fact that my legs are just plain tired.


Had some cheese and crackers this morning and some tostitos and salsa this afternoon.  Need to have a protein shake and more some water.  Thank goodness I took tomorrow off ... can't wait to get to the gym. 


Was looking at the photos I took this morning.  I wanted to delete all of the ones of me but for once I thought - hey, keep this so when you drop some more weight - you'll have another comparison pic.  So, I guess I did have some Lapband news to report :)

Annual Christmas Party

Oh wait, technically this is Professor's party and it's called a holiday party.  I've been getting caught up on blogs today, goofing around, making food that I can eat, etc.  I'm about to post before I leave and the phone just rang:


Can you please pick up an eraser and chalk before you come over?  ::: deep sigh ::: .  Have a great night everyone.  

This is my reminder

                                            

Where does the time go?

Ten years ago today, Professor and I had our first date and I still heart him :)  He's been around thru the lows and the highs of my weight and while not as openly supportive as the BOOBS (I love you gals) ~ he is in his own way.  For example, on Sunday he made one large omlette and had me slice off my own section.  Silly, I know. 


No movement on the scale so I guess that's good with all of the extra snacking I seem to be doing.  Department parties, RN of the year ceremony, vendors sending me stuff.  What is it with me and free food?  


What is it with me and having nothing to blog about?

Leslie is the Best Secret Bandit EVAH !

My Secret Bandit did it again ! Leslie from Band Sweet Band made me cry ... I just opened such a thoughtful gift that I cannot even believe it :)  I cannot find my camera (I am loosing everything lately which is just a microcosm of my life right now ... i.e. loosing it) or I would take a pic.  


First off, she knows much I love my furchild (Coco Fiona) and she included two little toys for her, a Hallmark cat ornament where you insert a pic of your fuzz (good thing I have plenty of those), a LOL Cat Calendar (so cute), a totally cool scarf which I am wearing tomorrow to work and a totally awesome little purple book (my fav color) entitled: Believe.  In it is little motivating quotes (which I just love).  And, the card - little cats with Santa hats singing: Wreck the Halls then pounce on the Mousies .. so, so cute !


Leslie ~ you are a total doll and will be such a great Mom to precious Violet ... I am so blessed to have such an awesome support system which lately I need to turn to ...


While I am doing better than every other year ... the food at work is just ridiculous.  The treats that are sent to me - I have been putting out for everyone but it seems like every department has a party that I get invited to and one chz and cracker turns into five.  One pesto on a toast point turns into three. 


Gym - Tuesday: 45 mins treading water and today: 30 mins treadmill and 7 mins elliptical (I'm adding a minute each time I get on it).  Not much but I am fighting TOM and a sinus headache (13 degrees on the weekend and it's 48 degrees right now).


Enough wining ... I'm still alive and plugging away ... ta !

NSV - climbed into a sailboat

Recall this post ....


Professor thinks we are too old for a small boat so he's been searching for a bigger one. The one he found (like most boats in Michigan) is stored on a cradle outside and yes it was 13 degrees this morning.  I had to climb up a 14 food ladder (simply laid upon the boat) and crawl thru the shrink wrap to get on the boat.  Oh, I wish I had taken a pic.  


I would have never done this (would physically not been able to) 50 lbs ago ...


                                                            

The ladder was like this - except it just had one side !! It was a fourteen foot ladder but it didn't really go all the way to where I had to get it ... again, I wish I had taken a pic !

Unknown number of things Saturday

Yuck ! While posting every day in November was too much ... not posting in December is too little ! Just finished a week of 13-14 hour days (three of which included gym time so that's good).


Scale - is down a little but still up .4 from my lowest weight (hmmm ... I think that was two weeks ago).  I now see the problem of gaining - how do you account for "I lost this week but I'm still at a net GAIN".  


Gym - LOVING IT. I think the key, for me, is - that I love this place. It is a beautiful building, clean, new, big towels, shampoo, conditioner, q-tips, cotton balls, hair dryers, lotion, mouthwash, etc.  Yes, it's expensive but if I'm going - it's worth it !


Job - still stinks but I don't care.  Not a lot of hiring in the HR world at the end of the year (not a lot of jobs to be able to apply).  I have faith ...


Band - I'm eating too much.  Need a fill but it will be tiny (recall, my last fill was 2cc and promptly when in for an unfill of .5cc).  The next time I can go is next Saturday but that's Professor's annual Cmas bash.  Really don't want to have to 'worry' while trying to host 75-100 people. 


I think that's it for now.  Looking foward to getting caught up on what happened in your week ! 

It happened ... no, not Cheez-its

Nacho chips.  It started mid-day when I started buckling under the stress and exhaustion at work. I had a 1 oz. bag of hot potato chips. I swear, it was like sugar in that I just wanted more.


Came home and had chili chicken for dinner and somehow that evil bag of nacho/tortilla chips was opened and 1/2 consumed. The band does not stop stupidity.  Adding water to the bag to soak the chips so that they were inedible stops the stupidity.


Logged the evil. Went to bed for a nap and now I'm up.  10 minutes will bring a new day and the gym bag is packed. 

If the gym is closed, does it still count as 'going'?

I suppose I should read the new gym info more carefully.  I got to the gym today at 530pm and there was a sign on the door to go to the back entrance. So I did.                                                                


I walked in the building and noticed that there were a group of people in one of the cooking demo rooms but no one else anywhere.  Someone came out of the cooking demo room and I inquired.  Found out that the place closes at 5pm.  Walked back out and around the building.  A nice little jaunt but not really a workout.                                                      

Met a g-friend at On the Border (Mexican food) for a late lunch.  The food was carp ! When did I become a picky eater? Someone who wants high quality food or dare I say - no food at all?
                                                     

Yoga class 1

Lived.


Amen. 

Whoa - weight gain !

Poof ! Well, it was bound to happen ... this is the first week since surgery where I gained.  1.4 lbs.  And it's real as it's been on the scale for most of the week.  No problem-o... I'm just going to continue working on doing all most of the right things and being patient.  <-- or maybe this is the wine talking as I was at a Cmas party tonight for my previous employer ;)


Here's to the week and month ahead !